Treatment Step Down

Saying Goodbye to Residential & Stepping Down to PHP (Partial-Hospitalization-Program)

These past few weeks at treatment have been intense and also incredibly rewarding at the same time.

Dealing with leaving earlier than I wanted due to insurance has been really tough.

I find myself in a constant pattern of waiting for the other shoe to drop. I tend to be in positions where I have the place I’m living on the line, only to be taken from me in some way.

I want to have a place to live that I’m not scared of losing. A place that’s all mine.

Right now, the closest thing I have is my car. I’ve decorated it to be as comfortable as possible for a person to live in while they don’t have anywhere else to go.

I built a shelving unit and have a cozy little bed set up. I even added some string lights and a tapestry to make it more homelike.

I can’t wait for the day where I can have a place to go and rest and just be.

A place to go home to. A place that feels like home. A place where I am safe to be me.

Until then, I’ll continue to go from bed to room to another room.

Constantly craving a safe, warm, place to stay.

I’m fortunate that I got my dream job which will start in just a few months (April).

It will cover housing and food and all utilities which is lovely to think of.

I’ll be able to save up money and travel, as well as help others, be adventurous and creative too.

The job will not only let me settle down, but also aligns with every single one of my values.

I am so excited for my new opportunity and to see where this new chapter of recovery takes me!

Until then, I will make this nomad life of mine make sense post PHP treatment (which will hopefully last a few weeks depending on insurance).

I wouldn’t have made it where I am today without the support of my good friends and treatment providers. You all are so incredible and my life is better since knowing you.

XOXO

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