What if it works out?

Reframing and challenging old patterns while chasing my dreams.

A common belief I have is that I am not worth it.

I have become skilled at dismissing any possibility for growth to the point where I don’t allow myself to have many dreams or hopes for the future.

I can easily come up with at least a dozen reasons as to why something can’t work out: not enough finances, not the right time, I should be doing something else, be “more stable”, etc.

I learned recently that in doing this I automatically reinforce one of my core beliefs which is that I am undeserving of good things.

I’m working in therapy to reframe and recreate the patterns I had while growing up.

Change is scary and its also doable.

You just have to take it one step at a time and trust the process.

For me, this means creating a list of all of my hopes and dreams. Instead of coming up with reasons as to why something can’t happen, I will create a plan to make it happen.

Example:

My core 3 things that I would love to achieve in this life are...

  1. Writing a book
  2. Backpacking around Europe
  3. Thru-hiking either the AT or PCT

I am fortunate and privileged to be both physically and mentally capable of achieving all three of these.

The ways I can achieve this goals are….

  1. Writing one word, sentence, paragraph at a time.
  2. Creating a financial budget and itinerary
  3. Gather my backpacking gear, create a plan, and hike.

In doing this I will align with my values of…

  1. Connection
  2. Curiosity
  3. Adventure

With that being said, (or in this circumstance, read) I’m going to continue to work on changing the script of my life. And, instead of saying “this won’t work”, I’m going to say “What if it works”?